I am a 41 year old woman and a vice-president in the firm that I work for. I have earned my position on merit and not on my back or knees, though I am sure that would have made the journey easier, and I am very proud of that fact. I work in personnel, more specifically in the training of our management team around the country and therefore I travel quite extensively.
My home life is wonderful. I am married to a man who is also driven to be successful and for that reason we have opted not to become parents, believing our focus would not be on our children but our work. We recognize that we are somewhat self-centered and could not be the parents we should be. Occasionally I feel a twinge of regret but reality usually brings me back to my senses. I am one who does NOT believe that you can have it both ways, something will get second place. But my husband and I have a great life together. We understand what motivates each other and are never lost in work related dinner conversations.
Our sex life is excellent, enjoying a variety of positions and interests, but nothing too far out.. My husband enjoys getting blowjobs in the car and I enjoy giving them to him, knowing we could be seen by passing cars at any moment. I like to hold his cum in my mouth for a moment before swallowing it. I enjoy the taste, texture and feel of these live sperm and the associated fluid. I tend to be the aggressor in our sex life, often taking top and deciding which position we will use, even choosing when we will or will not have sex.
My secret though, is kept hidden even from my husband and all those I know professionally and socially. Everyone is the dark about me. Everyone except those who control me; those who decide who, when, where and even what will fuck me. And I willingly submit. As I said I am a proud person; proud of my work, my success, my level of accomplishment. But within this group I am abased. My dignity is stripped, my accomplishments and professional position mean nothing. I am but a means to give sexual pleasure to whomever they choose, a cunt, mouth, asshole and all the rest of me, my only purpose is to be used. And that is my desire, the undercurrent of my life upon which everything else rides. Without this part of me I could not live, but I know I must keep it a secret from those who are closest to me. Both for practical reasons and because that also is what I desire.
In my job I must travel quite frequently, often leaving home on a Sunday night and returning late in the week or even the next week. My husband fully understands and encourages me to make the most of my ambition because he travels also, though not to the extent that I must in my position. When I schedule a business trip I must inform my controllers and they arrange for my usage in whatever city I may be in. I do not know if they are paid by those who use me or if it is a membership or if it is simply an organization of friends with similar interests. I also do not care. As soon as my work schedule is planned I let them know (somehow I assume it is 'them' and not an individual who controls me) via e-mail and they set things up. Sometimes I know in advance, sometimes I am only to be ready when I get there. Occasionally nothing happens and that disappoints me, for I thoroughly enjoy the ways in which I am used. It has become a part of me. A very enjoyable part.
Sometimes I think of people I know seeing the photographs that are taken of me on the internet or watching an amateur adult video that was taped of my getting what I deserve and need. I imagine them commenting to their spouse that 'Doesn't that look remarkably like Carleen!', and then laughing knowing that it couldn't possibly be me, the one devouring another woman's cum-soaked pussy while being fucked in the ass by a dog. I think these things and it makes me even more anxious to be used again.
There have been times when I have been in training sessions or meetings all day and later that night I am being gang-banged or sucking cock after cock, or drinking cum out of another woman's pussy or asshole or doing anything that you can imagine or would ever want to imagine. There are times when it is getting late in the day and during a meeting or session I will feel my cunt getting wet in anticipation of what might be done to me that night. When this does happen, part of me wants people to think they smell pussy and wonder who it is. Part of me hopes they will never find out because that would remove the excitement of living this secret life of getting and giving pleasure.
Do not assume, as it would be incorrect, that I am some kind of mute slave who just lays there and takes what is given her. If that is what the users want then that is what I become. But more often than not I am an active, lively participant who is willing to ask for things that some may not have thought of and wants all of us to be spent, exhausted by pleasure at the end of our time. The users do control how I am to be used but it is not out of line for me to suggest that 'Someone come fuck my asshole', or that 'I want that in my mouth'. I am there because they know that anything they want, I will give.
The only out of bounds, and this is clearly understood by all who use me, is hard S&M. I cannot return home to my husband with bruises or marks. Light flagellation of my tits and genitals and some spanking are allowed. Bondage, nipple clips, clip-on labia weights are all okay and I think very stimulating. Manipulation of the body parts goes a long way to creating pleasure. I believe that there are others, in fact I know there are, that can be and are used for S&M. But my situation is different I guess, so with me it is not allowed. That is the rule set up by the controllers.
I think that if I did not have a husband at home waiting for me I would enjoy that world. In fact, I would love to have my nipples pierced. That is one of my masturbating fantasies (surprised that I need them, aren't you). In it I'm tied to a post with my arms over my head with a crowd around me watching. I'm struggling a bit, not that I want to get away but somehow I feel as if I should. A woman wearing only a black lace thong comes out and begins to caress me and slide her body up and down mine. She massages my pussy and begins to finger me. My nipples are getting hard and she sucks them to make them harder. Just as I am close to cumming a man comes out with a long needle, an ice cube and a cork. He places the ice cube against my nipple for a few moments, I guess to numb it, then he places the cork on one side of my nipple and the needle on the other. He presses the needle against my nipple and begins to pierce it. I gasp in pain but also realize that I am also thrusting my hips in the air as if I'm getting fucked. He pushes the needle through my nipple into the cork then removes it. The tug of the needle as he slides it out makes me shudder. I am in pain and in pleasure but I'm not sure which is stronger. Without hesitation he does the same to my other nipple and this time I grunt loudly and cum as I feel it passing through my nipple and I realize,... the pleasure is the pain. The man then takes two silver rings and inserts them in my nipples. I have been pierced, and I have discovered new pleasures. I am now marked as someone's slave and look forward to the next step in my education; being inverted on an X and having my pussy tortured. As I said that is one of my fantasies and an area that I would like to explore, but for now I cannot.
I think I want to tell you about a situation that I mentioned briefly earlier. I learned that fucking and sucking animals, especially when I'm performing for people who want to see dog cum (or even horse cum on two occasions) oozing out of my cunt or running down my chin, really drives me wild. Many times after doing the dog I need a serious, deep, hard fucking. As I started to tell you, I discovered my enjoyment of animals two years ago when I was being used over a weekend. I was in Baltimore with the possibility of needing to stay a few more days to iron out some details, so of course I took the opportunity to let the controllers know of my extended stay. It was mid-autumn and had been fairly blustery and overcast through much of the week. My instructions were to stroll through the Inner Harbor, a beautiful section of the city which includes offices, retail space and a host of restaurants wearing a long but slit skirt and a very light, long-sleeved ivory blouse. I was not to wear any underwear and to be sure that the skirt was slit enough that a strong gust could expose me to anyone caring to look. My blouse also was to be unbuttoned enough to allow full view of my tits which are ample, not huge, but enough to satisfy many people at once. My nipples were plainly visible through the blouse, not only because of their dark color against the light material, but because of the chilly breeze that blew off the water that made them large and rock hard. I couldn't wait for someone's mouth to suck them and fondle me. I wandered through the area for about a half hour acutely aware that the meetings I had been in all week had taken place directly across the street in one of the office buildings. The thought of being seen displayed like this made my nipples ache for attention even more. I was stared at, whistled at and even asked how much I cost by a couple who were just getting off a very nice boat. I informed them that I was totally free and would enjoy fucking and sucking them very much, but that I was spoken for, for the weekend. I did however, give them a card with the controllers phone number on it. That is all there is, no address, no city or state, just a number to call and let them know that they encountered me and are interested in using me for their pleasure. When they call, and I hope they do because I was very attracted to the woman, they will be prompted to give some specific information about themselves so that the controllers can determine whether they will be included.
After chatting with the couple I wandered along for a few more minutes thinking of what might be in store for me this weekend. I knew that I would not be returned to my hotel until Sunday night and that I may be used continually for that entire time. I would though be returned in order to allow me time to recuperate and make my flight home Monday morning and resume my 'normal' life. As I neared the street a man stepped out of a limousine with a leash and spoke to me. 'It's time to be leashed'. I stepped forward to him and smiled. 'I was wondering who was to have me tonight', I said as I spread open my skirt and spread my legs slightly so he could hook the leash to the ring that pierced the right lip of my cunt. He entered the car and I followed as he tugged on the leash. The limousine was a stretch model that had something like L-shaped seats along the back & side and an ottoman offcenter but towards the middle of the car.
In the car were another man and a redheaded woman of about 45-50. 'It's good to see you again', I said and kissed each one. 'It's always nice to come to Baltimore'. 'It's always a pleasure to have you here' responded the second gentleman. 'It's always a pleasure just to have you', laughed the woman. I smiled, 'I'll take that as a compliment' and touched the side of her face , then let my slide softly down her neck and over her breasts. 'Carleen, why don't you take the position' said the first man who still held my leash in his hand. I moved across the ottoman lying so it supported me from my waist to my shoulders. As the men pulled off their pants, Angela, the woman knelt at the side of my head and began to probe my mouth with her tongue and slid her hand inside my open blouse and caressed my breasts and hard nipples. 'I've missed you', I said to her. 'I'm glad', she said as she raised her skirt to show me her beautiful strawberry blonde pussy. She then moved over me and straddled my face. As I tell you this I can still see her pussy over my face and smell it's scent and it makes my cunt tingle even now. I was grateful to taste her pussy once again begin the sexual pleasures that would occupy me for the weekend. The lips of her cunt were in full bloom and I softly kissed each petal. I then stroked it up and down with my tongue. She was a delicious woman. I felt a hand unclip the leash from me and begin to stroke my own pussy for a few moments before a finger entered me. 'Don't forget Justin, if you fuck her, don't cum in her. We have to wait for the surprise.', Angela reminded. 'Surprise?', I asked, my voice muffled in her crotch. 'Trust me Carleen,' she replied, 'your going to begging for it. I know I would.' I couldn't wait to find out what the surprise was and I knew that if Angela said I would be begging, I would be. That thought excited me and I began to bury my tongue and mouth into her wet cunt, sucking her clit drinking the juices that flowed from her. One of the men, probably Justin, spread my legs wide and began to fuck me. He would pull all the way out of me and rub the head of his cock up and down my lips then plunge deeply into me again. Angela was sucking the other man as I continued to feed on her cunt.
After a drive of about half an hour we arrived at a large stately home set well back from the road and surrounded by trees. There were about ten other cars there so I knew I was going to get a lot of what I desired and needed. The leash was reattached to my cunt and we entered the house through the back entrance to the lower level. We entered a room of about 15-20 people, two other women besides Angela and myself, the rest men.
'Some of you know Carleen and have had her before' Angela introduced. 'to those of you who have not, let me just say that she is my favorite fuck. I don't mean to offend any of you here, but let that say how well you will enjoy her.' I was surprised and thrilled by Angela's statement because I knew she was into virtually every sexual practice there is and for her to say that made me anxious to please these people. 'tonight's menu is this,' she continued. Carleen will be strapped to the table by her wrists and you can all fuck as much as you like. But remember, no one is to cum in her pussy or to make her cum. If you believe that she is about to cum you must stop immediately. When you are ready to cum simply move to the other end of the table and cum in her mouth. O f course I wouldn't mind a drink or two myself', she smiled.
I was stunned. All these people were going to fuck me, yet I was not to be allowed to cum. That's impossible! , I thought. Don't they know what that will do to me? Then I recalled Angela's comment about my begging for the surprise. After being held back for all that time, I'd beg for anything! I knew that this would be torture and part of me couldn't wait for it to begin. You know, that sensation of feeling you just have to cum or you'll explode? The expectancy of it made me all the more excited and heightened my senses.
Angela led me to a table which I was laid down on. It ended at the small of my back so they could get right into my pussy. My legs were spread wide and my feet placed into straps high to the sides. I was fully exposed to them and I loved it. The two women and some of the men were looking at my cunt and discussing it's merits. This was what I lived for; to be nothing more than a fuck object for people I didn't even know. My shoulders rested on the other end of the short table and my head lay lower on a padded extension so that with my head back the men could shove their cocks literally into my throat as they fucked my face. My wrists were bound together and extended beyond my head.
The first man stepped up and slid his cock right into me. He had no trouble because I was so wet from anticipation. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the rhythm of his thrusts. I could feel my tits tighten with the thrill and my nipples harden. A cock pressed against my lips, I opened my eyes smiled at the man opened my mouth so I could have the fun of sucking the cum out of him. The two men who were having me joked and laughed over who had the better hole and the advantages of each. Some of the other men were stroking their cocks waiting for their turn with me. Angela was giving a blowjob to another man and one of the women was at my side sucking hard at my nipples. The man fucking my cunt pulled out and came around to my other side and because the man in my mouth hadn't cum yet spewed his hot gush all over my tits which the woman eagerly lapped up. Another man quickly took the first one's place in my cunt and right away began pounding hard into me. My pussy was throbbing with excitement and I could tell that the man in my mouth was about to give me his cum to drink. He did so with a shudder and left a drip on my lips as he removed himself.
The second woman licked it from my mouth and kissed me, her tongue retrieving what sperm might be left in my mouth. She smiled at me and said that one of the men was going to fuck her in the ass and she wanted me to lube her up. I told her I would love to lick her asshole and would she please return when he was finished so I could share what he gave her. She turned around and arched herself and opened her ass to me. I licked her up and down and pressed my tongue into her asshole as much as I could. I would have licked for hours but the man who had been fucking me shooed her away and pushed his cock in my mouth just in time to explode with a hot thick squirt. He did not cum a lot but had that very thick type of cum that I love. The woman who had been sucking my tits moved to my pussy while there was an opening and began to really lick and suck me. What drove me wild was when she pushed two of her fingers up into my asshole while she ate me. By this time I was thrusting my hips in the air even when there was no one occupying my cunt. The woman who was getting fucked in the ass returned and offered me her soaked asshole. First she stuck her middle finger up her ass and pulled it out, all wet and glistening. 'Here's a sample ', she said and put the finger in my mouth. I sucked and licked it clean then begged her to let me suck the rest out of her. She obliged and turned for me to lick her clean. Her asshole was still open about the size of a dime and I could see a trickle of cum running out of her. I licked and sucked to get every drop of that cum and enjoyed being able to get my tongue further inside than I had when I had prepared her. Angela, who had been sucking another man's cock, tapped her on the shoulder and gestured for her to move. I was disappointed since I was still enjoying her asshole, but what Angela gave me helped make up for it. She smiled at me awkwardly and touched my cheek, then leaned down to kiss me. Then I found out why her smile was odd. When she kissed me and I opened my mouth to her, I found that her mouth was full of cum; She hadn't swallowed when the man came in her mouth, she had saved it for me. I told you she was special. I was about dying then, licking the taste of cum from Angela's mouth and the woman at my bottom was now working both my asshole and cunt with dildos. I must have been moaning very loudly at that point so they could tell I was about to explode; remember they hadn't allowed me to cum yet and the frustration and pent up tension were killing me. They also were giving me an intense rush. They all backed away from me at the same moment and watched me writhe and pump my hips in the air at a non-existent cock. I realized that my hands had not been restrained for fun but so that I couldn't masturbate myself to cum. My cunt was aching at this point for release and I began to beg for it, just as Angela had said I would. 'Please! Somebody fuck me, I can't stand it! I've got to cum. Fuck me with anything, I don't care'. 'Sorry Carleen', Angela said, 'but everybody's spent. There's no one to fuck you'. 'No one!?' 'Well, I think we might be able to find someone.' 'I don't care who it is, just fuck me,' I begged. I was so anxious I was beginning to wonder if anything could relieve me. I was wrong.
I lay there with my eyes shut wondering why no one would help me. They all loved to fuck; that was why they were here. Angela spoke to me, 'Carleen I'd like you to meet Andre. We call him Andre the giant because of his spectacular cock. I opened my eyes and turned to see a huge Saint Bernard. I gasped loudly. 'He's the only one who can help you now, Carleen. What do you say? Believe me he's fantastic.' 'You've been fucked by him', I asked almost not believing. 'He's one of my new playmates and I wanted you to meet him. I thought you might decline unless you were, um, desperate. Really you'll love it.' 'He's huge', I said looking at his enormous cock hanging between his hind legs, couldn't he kill me with that thing'? 'No, you'll be surprised how well you can accommodate him'. I was confused but desperate enough for anything, I was in need of release. 'Allright, Have him fuck me', I agreed, unsure of what to expect but beginning to like the idea. I always say I want new experiences and here was one literally staring me in the face. Angela 'prepared' him by sucking on that huge thing for a few moments. When he began to pump at her face she stopped sucking (though she looked like she didn't want to) and led him up to a stool where he would stand. He sniffed at my soaked pussy then gave it two quick licks. I was so hot, that was all it took to convince me. 'Come on Andre, let me have it, give me your big fat cock', I called to him. He mounted me and thrust his cock deep inside me. 'Oh FUCK!', I yelled, amazed that he could just ram something so thick into me. He pumped and pumped my cunt. I could feel his hard breathing as he let me have it, his slobber dripping on my tits. I didn't care, I just wanted to be fucked by this beast for all he was worth. 'Oh shit!', I yelled, 'I've never been fucked like this! Fuck me Andre, Fuck me.' My tits were bouncing off my face he was pounding me so hard. Everyone was cheering him on and it struck me that this was truly being used the way I wanted to be. 'This fucking dog's making me cum!', I cried out. 'Oh yes!, oh yes! Give it to me Andre'. I felt my back arch and my legs spread even wider hoping I could get more of him in me. I yelled out as I came in a gush like I haven't in a long time and I think it actually put him over the edge. He pushed into me as hard as he could, making me gasp again and I felt a load of cum spurting all over the inside of my cunt. He must have cum for 30 seconds, which is a long time to be spewing sperm if you think about it. He just stayed there, heaving heavily above me and I could feel his cum streaming out of me. He dismounted me and I lay there listening to my heart pound in my head, thinking I have never been fucked like that before. And again the thought played in my head of how exciting it really was to be fucked by an animal and believe it or not I wanted to try it again.
Angela stroked my face. 'Incredible, wasn't it?' I could only nod, my breath not having not fully returned to me. She reached between my legs and wiped her hand up my pussy. Her hand was covered in dog cum. She put her ring and pinkie finger in her mouth, 'You have to taste this dog's cum', she offered, moving her hand to my mouth. I did not hesitate a second and closed my mouth around her other two fingers and tasted for the first time, the sperm of a dog. Right away I was hooked. Not as much by the taste, though I liked it, but by the sensation and implications of this new world of pleasure, this new form of use that had been found for me. The woman who had given me her ass to lick knelt by the dog wh owas on his side. She cradled his still huge and oozing cock in her hands, running her tongue up and down it's bright red shaft making sure to drink whatever cum still drained from it. 'Thank you', I said to Angela, 'thank you for using me like this. You were right, it was incredible.' 'You think that was incredible, wait for tomorrow.' 'What's tomorrow'?, I asked. 'You and I are going to entertain at a private party for some friends of mine and their four dogs.' 'I'm looking forward to it', I said, and I meant it. That though is a story for another time, another chapter of my life.
I stayed with Angela that night and we loved each others body's softly and sweetly, ours mouths lingering in each other's pussy's and just enjoying each other. I believe that Angela is a soulmate to me, we are linked, not just by the sexual pleasures we enjoy together , but by a bond of our sexual spirits. I want her to do anything and everything she wants with me. Whatever she asks from me I will not hold back
I will have to share more with you later about Angela, the couple from the boat, animals I've been fucked by and the pleasures I have enjoyed and especially how I came to learn of my need to be used, but now I must rest; I'm the guest of honor at an 'anal Extravaganza' tonight. Hopefully someday you will be able to use me for some pleasures.
