Why Am I Crying? Book

This was a slow read for me because it wasn't very engaging. I kept reading because I was interested in the theme of faith and healing, especially a reexamination of faith. The author finds new meaning in faith from mysticism. She touches on her health problems, her life path, the religious community in New Mexico, and the history of Christian mystics, but her writing reads more like a diary, it just wasn't that interesting to me as a reader. It kind of answered my main question going in: why and how do we often return to faith when we need it most? But she accepts some pretty ridiculous concepts like levitation and the stigmata. I was hoping for a more realistic examination that made more sense, scientifically and sociologically. I've been looking for the best words to describe the kind of person she seems to be in the book. At her best she comes off observant and kind and harmless and spiritual, but sometimes it's forced and kooky.