Fifty Years in Polygamy: Big Secrets and Little White Lies Book

Contents

Preface....................vii
Acknowledgments....................ix
Chapter 1: The Beginning and Little Sophie....................1
Chapter 2: Dad's Drills....................11
Chapter 3: God's False Promises....................13
Chapter 4: My Salvation....................20
Chapter 5: Bad and Stupid Sophie....................26
Chapter 6: Our Catastrophes....................33
Chapter 7: Polygyville, Friends, Foes, and Shame....................37
Chapter 8: Garments, a New Mother, and Siblings....................41
Chapter 9: Boys and High School Angst....................46
Chapter 10: Engagement and Marriage....................53
Chapter 11: Teaching, Firstborn, and First-wife Duties....................59
Chapter 12: First Separation and Diane....................63
Chapter 13: Discovering Abuses: The Torment....................70
Chapter 14: Birth Control and Priesthood Duties....................74
Chapter 15: Evil Ervil....................79
Chapter 16: Prospective Plural Wives, and Death in Childbirth....................81
Chapter 17: Murder of Our Prophet....................87
Chapter 18: Courtship Agony....................92
Chapter 19: Unbearable Jealousy....................96
Chapter 20: Overboard Self-sacrifice....................102
Chapter 21: Poverty and Dumpster Diving....................108
Chapter 22: Truth and Consequences....................114
Chapter 23: Friendship from God....................127
Chapter 24: A Noble Deity of Love....................135
Chapter 25: Demoted to Nothingness....................142
Chapter 26: Coming Out of the Closet-Courage to Heal or Die....................150
Chapter 27: The Friendship from God Ends....................161
Chapter 28: Reconciliation....................166
Chapter 29: Our First Honeymoon....................171
Chapter 30: Work, College, and Religious Perpetrators....................174
Chapter 31: Graduation and Moving On....................181
Chapter 32: Following My Dreams....................187
Chapter 33: My Year in Cedar City....................195
Chapter 34: Calling It Quits....................202
Chapter 35: Leaving My Sanctuary....................210
Chapter 36: For Better or For Worse....................220
Chapter 37: Places in Hell....................227
Chapter 38: Enough Is Enough....................234
Chapter 39: Between Then and Now....................246