Contents
Acknowledgements.......................................................ix
1. Prologue: Eliza Wants to Know.......................................1
2. The Contents of the File............................................7
3. The Last Visit......................................................9
4. Missing.............................................................12
5. Just Business.......................................................16
6. Still Missing.......................................................22
7. Driving Lessons.....................................................26
8. Waiting.............................................................31
9. My Old Man..........................................................35
10. The House with the Gate............................................39
11. I Remember.........................................................49
12. Albert and Rose....................................................52
13. Acting.............................................................67
14. Eulogies...........................................................73
15. Christmas with Dogs................................................82
16. Looking for Crumbs.................................................97
17. The Drama of the Not Particularly Gifted Child.....................101
18. October, 1998......................................................106
19. Mementos...........................................................113
20. Messages Received..................................................122
21. Nelson and Leah....................................................127
22.Coming and Going...................................................133
23. Mythology..........................................................140
24. Two Fathers........................................................151
25. My Father under My Fingernails.....................................156
26. Resentment.........................................................161
27. Conjecture.........................................................165
28. Uncles.............................................................176
29. Recovery...........................................................190
30. Keeping in Touch...................................................195
31. Family Gifts.......................................................203
32. After Life.........................................................215
33. A Pretty Good Day..................................................218
34. Coda...............................................................224