Living Is What I Wanted: Last Poems Book

	Staying alive	9
	Live to manifest	10
	Along with our illusion	11
	As though life were a question	12
	All living is lying	13
	An epic	14
	Fixed or impermanent	15
	Where I built my house	16
	The living	17
	Unless change is a language	18
	Shadows live in the sun	19
	One small answer	20
	Calm in the form of meaning	21
	Thinking my father's thoughts	25
	My father blowing his nose	26
	The life we led together	27
	Someone of the past	28
	Hope was the happiness	29
	For my daughter: 1. I was never so happy	30
	For my daughter: 2. My daughter, we will not meet	30
	For my daughter: 3. My daughter's first gray hairs	30
	The prize	32
	Vivi	33
	Cousin Alex	34
	Family	35
	At fifty	36
	To contemplate a difference	37
	Love notwithstanding	38
	Living was what I wanted	39
	I am not for living alone	40
	Into the circle	43
	Saying yes to living	44
	My skeleton, my rival	45
	My life is not mine	47
	Identification	48
	I am to myself	49
	At eighty I change my view	50
	Make of me its purpose	51
	I accept	52
	Atlas	53
	Stones will pay me heed	54
	Presence in an empty room	55
	Meat is my comfort	56
	Out of focus	57
	Joy of flight	58
	A sound like any other	59
	It's my life	60
	My wholeness is dependent	61
	The live match	62
	Born to know suffering	67
	The flame lights up	68
	Something hopeful	69
	The old poet	70
	How I learned to be with others	73
	To be a poet	75
	Life in the volcano	76
	Where if not in words	77
	I'm not yet convinced	78
	Friendship enough	79
	The spirit may enter	80
	Circling the silence	81
	Acknowledgments	82
	Publisher's Note	82
	About the Author	83