If Only in My Dreams Book

Roxanne was only seventeen when she was raped and beaten into unconsciousness not remembering who or why anyone would do this to her. Roxanne having to live with the guilt of not remembering if she had contributed to the death of her seven year old sister Tonja, or what happened to her that same night; left Roxanne more confused and guilt ridden. Soliciting the help of her best friend Gloria, Roxanne asked her to revisit the night when it all went wrong. Roxanne's mother Mabel tells Gloria that she doesn't think that bringing up such a horrible tragedy would help Roxanne at all, and tells Gloria not to pursue it any further,.

Being a virgin at the time of the rape left Roxanne empty and confused. Andrew, Roxanne's boyfriend does not understanding why Roxanne has all but pushed him out of her life, But things go from bad lo worse when Roxanne leaves a letter for her father saying that she would be leaving town. But what her father didn't know was that his daughter was pregnant and things were about to get a lot worse where she was headed.