Cobordisms and spectral sequences Book

I wanted to read it because of seeing this quote from it online:
"The fact that I
am writing to you
in English
already falsifies what I
wanted to tell you.
My subject:
how to explain to you that I
don't belong to English
though I belong nowhere else."

My mother has said similar things to me, of feeling like she never belonged in either language, either place, as one of the reasons she chose not to raise me as bilingual, and maybe this book will help me to understand.