Mad House; Growing up in the Shadows of Mentally Ill Siblings Book

I turn to Clea Simon to understand my own family. I read "Fatherless Women" and as she wrote in that book about the women and the loss of our fathers, it hurt to remember the circumstances under which I lost my own dad. But I read it for strength. It is important that others that traversed the most difficult roads before us.
"Mad House" again put me in touch with hurting memories. My mother had episodes in which she would scream hateful things. She was bipolar; I was a difficult daughter who was often the victim of her mood swings.
All families have losses and problems, but not all families have mental illnesses. We seemed so alone and isolated back in the days when I was growing up.
I can't say that after reading Clea Simon's books that I understand better either the losses or the illnesses. But I am glad for her books. I know now that we who suffered through these chaotic episodes are not alone.
Clea Simon is a good guide and friend. It's important and comforting to read the words of those who have suffered some of what we have suffered. I kept stopping as I read this book to record memories and feelings in my journal.
The section in last chapter about her decision to possibly reconnect with her sister is too long and unsatisfying. She did not come to a clear decision. I too have struggled with decisions about weather to reconnect with a lost sister. We go around in circles; the decision does not get made.